As you've probably already guessed.


Oh yeah, she has shifted. Get livejournal, bitches. Facebook too while you're at it so you can see my pretty and awesome pictures haha. I'll still keep this blog as it is, I suppose. And maybe even drop in an entry every once in a while. In the mean time though, I feel the need to restrict.

Love,
Huda

Cars on a cable


Stolen from slasherflick's blog..

"Actual Happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the over-compensations for misery. And, of course, stability isn't nearly as spectacular as instability. And being contented has none of the glamour of a good fight against misfortune, none of the picturesqueness of a struggle with temptation, or a fatal overthrow by passion or doubt. Happiness is never grand"-Aldous Huxley

Exactly what I mean by "trainwreck appeal". There's beauty in wreckage. *Wreck of the Day plays in the background;her live set btw is AMAZINGGG* It's undeniable. No, not sick. Just different. You know what they say, you shun what you dont understand.

Wow. I'm stunned by that quote. In complete awe. Almost like when I realised how pretty East Coast can get sometime last week. Says everything, doesn't it?

Pretty East Coast.

Why see. I told you. And that wasn't a lame spinoff/weak attempt at trying to be all "let's-do-panoramic(sortof)-views-today".

Also, am faced with a shitload of things to think and ponder about. Using your friggin head weighing issues can't be all that bad sure. But my god. It's hell frustrating sometimes. Most of the time when nothing's a certainty and yet you somehow feel that sense of obligation towards... god knows who/what really. Man, I'm Confused Chick right now.

Been battling it out. All out. Pride? That needs to be chucked COMPLETELY aside right now. It'll be humbling, you can bet on that. But a lesson I need to learn, I think. We'll see. Besides, the eternal optimist has gotta stay true to her name. She tries to. Her darnest.

But the whole idea of THAT.. Well I can't help but break a smile. Key word being "idea", but it's alright cos Patience is indeed, a virtue. And each time I venture ANYWHERE near thinking of absolute crap, in this area at least, I'll think of that song, and continue believing.

Blogger's note: Hi, the dirt (like dirtiest of all dirt) is all in elllljayyyy. Yes, unfortunately for you loyal readers, I've decided to join the army of "I-need-my-privacy-so-I'm-controlling-readership" folks. So try your luck and get one already, damn it. Like Najib, Mudd and Clara. Awwh, they boulder. Not rock. BOULDER.

So I will just let go; let you turn me inside out

And so the truth spits out


Since all this is totally, completely 100% public, this will have to do. (: Awwh. L.A.W kicks ass. And I feel bad sometimes. But then I know I shouldn't. Cos everything happens for a reason. That each ship sails its own individual route and if it's over and done with, then so be it.

Somehow, I don't think there's a way to salvage it. Unless you start acting more human. Whatever. I couldnt care less. Since the day I realised how much it's all worth.

Loyalties tested. And I made the stand.

Perhaps it all started from that, or not. But I've suddenly been feeling all "private" and shushed. Oh trust me, I've been updating, just on the other more PERSONAL one. Too bad suckers. It's locked and unfortunately, I customize my groups so even if you're my ljfriend, it doesnt mean you automatically get to read.

Since when the secrecy? Well, darlings, what I've to say is exclusive. So. Hahah. Anyway, it's largely because there's too much too little people know. So. And sorry to burst your bubble, but I'm no blonde who's gna type EVERYTHING out here. You know how some people do the dumbest of things on their open, like open Bianca of Othello kinda open for all, blog. Honestly. Too weird.

I think. It's only a matter of time before I shift permanently to lj. But but. I like this one here. ): How now. Main thing, go get an lj. Who knows. I may just invite you to my exclusive group. HAHAH. No but really. I love the whole, "I can control readership" thing. Brilliant.

One psycho night..


Because I decided to be different that one night. Oh. Ronald's so hot. Not to mention sexy French Men who talked to ME yes ME at 350AM. Wow. Super omgomgomg moment right there. Hehe. And just for the record, I was looking pretty crappy. HAH. I KNOWWW. TOO COOL.

Anyway, I'll just have you know that it makes me sad sometimes. I mean sure, as it is, it's pretty cool. But it makes me sad cos I don't think you'll ever know a connection of PROPER depths. Then again, ignorance is bliss. So. But heck, what about your principles?! Do you even have any!?

Right now, over at Aniszah's. And she's fast asleep that silly girl. Gosh, you've no idea how much I missed you idiot! I better turn in now. Sleeping never felt so good, like man, what luxury. LOL.



Cos I'm a show off like that. And okay. Narcissistic, fine. Hearts you many many. Come folks, let's meet up. You know who you are. Sending all my love out to those who deserve it, hah what a bitchy thing to say eh?


I'm done looking.

Life is a bitch.
Because if it were a slut,
it'd be easy.

I've got plenty to say initially. Then Facebook distracted me, and I realise that I'm suddenly out of words. Or maybe I just don't wish to say it here anymore. I'm REALLY considering permanently shifting to LJ cos it makes life so much easier. I mean, whatever's not here's there.

Anyway, what's going on in this head of mine is... undescribable? Ok. It's 458AM. I'm tired. My eyes are shutting. Have a good one all and I promise a better entry the next one.

Special caffeine and special songs

First it was Never Ever. Then it was Buses and Trains. (:

All's good over here. And really now. Everything connects.

I think God can explain

Before I go off on a hiatus since I do need to buckle myself down and get really muggy-serious, here's bigggggggg treat. An all-in-one slide to boot! Pictures from Scott's birthday outing at Escape, the sleepover, to rocking days in school, Gelare goodness with Joyce and Marian and random shots of classmates and the sort.

Friday night's Lit lecture was amazing, as is the case with all Lit lectures. (: Hilarious how everything relates. Simply hilarious. Oh before that, Faith (Claudia's friend) came on down to SR so they could give a birthday surprise to Fang Han. Then, she ran with me! OMG. 4K in 25 minutes. SHE IS SO GOOD AT PUSHING YOU. Like for the better, cos wow. Highly motivating and stuff. (: Trains the mental strength. Felt like some kinda Super Girl after the run. Invincible babeh.

Had a lift to Parkway from Joyce's friend. Joyce. Howww. Gah. I need some -. Met Tabby's fam too, cos they picked her up for Scott's birthday dinner. And Tabby, be GOOD now. Yeah, I'm crazy jealous. (Read my edited profile babe! HAHAH.)

Hot rendezvous with Rachel Sexy See Friday night post night Lit lecture. :D I love this girl. A LOT A LOT. It was so awesome just talking to her, having the whole of Parkway to our stupid selfish selves, camwhoring like madddd, laughing my guts out and bursting into spurts of giggles cos we just can't help it. I swear, Starbucks is the place to just TALK. Ok, shall add Gelare to that list too and of course, Raimah's and the airport.

OH! Cut my hair! And I hated it at first till I kinda semi scolded the hair dresser till I got a four dollar discount. Damn girl. You're good. (OMG AUNTY. I told you to TRIM my hair and I showed you exactly how much! And layer it a little. NOT SHAVE OFF HALF MY HEAD!) But everyone thinks otherwise. Haha, so okay it's neater and my ponytail has a better shape but but but! My curls!!!!! ): Sigh. Change is the only constant. Yes. It is.

Okay. Till next time then.

Love, Huda.

So slide along slide, yeah baby that's right

13/9/2007

"Today's a funny day" I said. "Yeah. Today's a REALLY funny day" replied Joyce at the Siglap bus stop.

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And what do you know. Today's a funny day too. By funny I don't mean funny hahah joke funny, you moron. But really. The past few days have been plain WEIRD, for lack of a better adjective.

Like how there's this crazy mix of good and bad and shit like that. Kinda overwhelms you actually. But then you learn to take it all in your stride. Let it slide, let it slide. It could've been worse.. No sorry, there are things which are of more pertinence and significance.

It's amazing how things work out. It really truly is. I'm really glad for last night cos it affected me too, in more ways that you could ever think of actually. So 'thank you' to you too. Gave me light. (HAH. Pun super not intended Najib!)

And speaking of Najib, got to see him ytd by accident! (: The boy was working you see. Hahah, friends thought you were so much older than you are!

Did Gelare after school with Joyce and Marian. And that's where things got weirdER. It was already pretty strange in school. Anyway, Siglap was like the whole place was filled with depressed people or something. The coming together of something bleak. Deciding whether that remark was genuinely funny or not. I think not.

Hi you. I'm glad we got to talk the way we did. It opened my eyes too, not only yours. So cheers to more heart to hearts, alright, babe? (:

Regardless of the crappy things that happen throughout the course of the day, the way the day ended in itself made it all alright. The end matters. A whole lot.

I love love love my friends. Cos they're awesome. No doubt scandalous, but eh, that I can deal with. I know of other character traits I can't, but I'm learning to let go. You can't say it's impossible to do the things you've done before. (It's disgustingly tempting to add some snide remark here btw. I KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT YOU.)

PICCAS:

Marian Fernandez the Bimbo of A1

Because candids are goodddd

Everyone loves push pops.

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And so the fasting month begins and I feel like I'm on to something good. I don't know why, but I just do.

Fix this jigsaw

When the whole family is in front of the tv watching something from Nat Geo/Discovery, half the time, we'll all be gawking at the screen with tons of expressions of pure shock. It's amusing really. Cos I'm at the com now,duh, and to hear them all, one after the other, man. It's too intriguing, you can't help, but want to take a peek at the screen too. Hahah. We'll all be incredibly amazed at the Crocodile or Snake or whatever. Heh. My family's.. pretty weird, I gotta admit.

There's been lots of meet ups with people I dont usually get to see all that often. Much love going out to Mud, Mariam, Rachel and Scott and Co. (: Najib. Where are you?!

Let's see. There was Starbugggsss with Mariam that one day. Coffee with this Bitch is always good. Ho ho ho to Ms Big Ass. LMAO.

It's always good to keep in check with those crazy emotions. Especially if you've got people to pour everythin out to and whine and bitch and moan to. I think if I were to tape each coffee session with her and play it back, I'd cringe and cringe and CRINGE over the things I say. Yes, I'd say Normal Huda would've laughed and poked fun at the girl talking. Dont you think so, Cow? LOL. But all's cool now. I think everything's in check. Yes. In check.

Dinner-ed later with Mudd. Love the company with you all la. *blows kisses

Then there was Kopitiam and studying with Rachel Sexy See. Goodness. When was the last time we properly met up, huh idiot! I've professed my love for you already, but it'll never be enough. You're unlike any other babe. (:

Not forgetting Scott's birthday celebration at Escape. Ok, more like birthday celebration turned sleepover, lol. That mighty kicked ass too. Though the part where Scott and I got jealous wasn't. Haha. All your fault, Tabby. It's ALL YOUR fault.

It was a great day cos we are one cool bunch, if you don't already know, hahah. Sarah's officially my camwhore partner. Hah. And the Log ride? It practices gender discrimination cos the guys ALWAYS end up soaked through and through whether they're seated at the back or front! LOL.

Here's a couple of eyecandies HAHAHA..

There's more pictures actually. Cos Tabitha's lousy like that. Will make a slideshow when I get hold of them all. Ooh! Teacher's Day dinner! If you've got Facebook, you could've viewed them a long LONG time ago, cos it's THAT easy to upload. Megaquick. Moral of the story? Simple. GET. FACEBOOK. :D

1A01, dear rocking class, brought out our teachers to Sakura International Buffet Restaurant (quite a mouthful, pun intended) Monday night and boy, was it great. :D I know you're reading this you sneaky teachers. So send us the photos soon! Heh.

Of those that I've got..

(Note: Click the speaker for the background sound! I'm so considerate.)

Post dinner was spent with James, Shawn, Joyce and Tabby at The Balcony chilling on lovely sofas. Weird music, but okay la. Nice company. (:

More classmate (specifically, Limwoan, Fiona, Clauds and Shawn) time spent at the airport on Friday supposedly for our Econs Alive Project research thingy. But whoa. Didn't we all get to know each other A LOT better by the end of the night, eh? ;D Everything that's mentioned stays at the airport or okay, so it can fly off along with Catchay Pacific, British Airways or SIA too. HAHA.

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Kieffy's greedy. We got her this new brand of cat food, since it's rather expensive we mix a bit of it with her usual food and she keeps on eating it at this crazy speed! HAHA. Think this is the same amusement the teachers were referring to when they saw us go at the buffet, hahah.

I need to go bathe now. Can't believe it'll be the fasting month SO SOON! I've not even paid back! Gah. But no. Hello, weight loss scheme!



Drying up in conversation,
you will be the one who cannot talk.
All your insides fall to pieces,
you just sit there wishing you could still make love.
They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you.
You will be the one screaming out.


See Mudd. This song's stuck in my head.

I'll remain my peace cos you're not worth it

Now you, need a personality revamp. Cos you're stooping so low, it's ridiculous. You think I dont know, but I do. But gee, I pity you still. It's pathetic. It's low. You're low. Funny how things go about. Know that it all takes time, and retribution? Remember that? It'll hit you right back, twice over hopefully. Wishing you the worst isn't graceful, I'll admit. But your actions speak louder than my words. You proved what sort of person you are by what you did. I'll rest my case here, cos even with this paragraph alone, it's starting to ruin my mood. Even if it does go your way, you know it won't last.

You've got no conscience and that struck me pretty hard.

Rundown

Friday was great. I mean, yeah, so I did get snub, EARLY IN THE MORNING, by some jerk, but that's okay. Kenneth was surprisingly pretty concerned! Was kinda touched okay. Hahah. (:

It was good, cos the Teachers' Day Concert was not bad! Plus, 20th's first ever big event, so big yay there, too. And! I got to sit with Patson, Fiona, Claudia so hah! See, Limwoan and Tabby. It was still fun WITHOUT you two!

After school stuff, headed back to Cedar, and whoa. Really missed the Cedarians! Awh man, those idiots (yes, a term of affection, indeed) I've not seen in eons! Goodness gracious me. It was really great to see everyone again. And that familiar building and all. Gosh, I kissed the wall along the Art rooms, HAHAH. It's called overwhelmed with nostalgia. Shut up, you cold cold person.

After various attempts to get hold of Mrs Chew, a bunch of us, headed over to PP Macs (our good ol' place to head over back then for it's convenience) and had a catching up sesion. Didnt quite realise how much I've missed 4C!

Leo and I went over to Preeti's for facial. Her mother was really good and so incredibly therapeutic. Well, after 8 years, you're bound to get good, yeah? The ambiance was simple but it did the trick. The music playing at the background really nailed it. Loved it. Shall be going back for regular sessions, yes Leo? Hahah.

Met up with Mudd and Anthony later that night at Starbucks. Siglap's as usual. Hahah, good to see you boys after so long! It was real good hanging out with you two. Did Masayu's for late dinner and Anthony very kindly semi-treated me!

Saturday. Went back to school to complete the rounds thingy, initially planned on studying in school, but then I just had to be told of extremely shitifying news. So that ruined it all. I'll get back to this later.

Trooped over to Mudd's place instead to study/lunch/hang out with my two favourite boys in the world. Dont kembang already ah. I love how things can get so extremely comfortable between us three. Like okay for example. This one time, Mudd was at his laptop, I was reading Econs and Najib was sleeping. Or like, how Najib just did his own thing upstairs while Mud and I watched the Sweet Sixteen Movie on MTV, after lunch and my making a mess with the icing thingy, cos I was trying to be creative with his sister's rejected cupcakes and failed miserably.

It's like. Family. (: I know, you're all gna go, "Great, so here she goes turning into mush, yet again". But really.

So then, after that, had tuition (yes, me the no lifer, whatever) and that was that. Hahah, was supposed to go towning with them, but aye. Opportunity cost, recall! LOL.

Oh! Walking to Mudd's, along the hugeass longkang there, I saw two familiar looking people! Lyon and Siti! HAHA. So I walked over to the longkang railing thing, rested my head on my hand resting on the railing and cleared my throat. Whoa. They responded almost immediately! Apparently, I am that loud.

So then, we started conversing ACROSS the hugeass longkang. Conversing evolved to bitching and then, we just had to stop doing that over the longkang and meet up proper. HAHAH. Talkd for a couple of minutes where I basically ranted and ranted and ranted about the SHIT news that I found out. In a nutshell, of course. Long story short, that being whoa, I got it, and I got it bad.

Hah, so at the library cafe for tuition? GUESS WHO I MET. The two of them again. HAHAH. Too funny. I couldnt believe what I was seeing when I scanned the cafe for seats! This time around, they mentioned where they were going next and whoa. Hahah! Siglap! Which I kinda would've sorta been there. LOL.

Sunday, today. It was super mellow. Tution in the morning again, where ho ho ho. I met more people. Told you it's too happening.

I think. I should go sleep now. Dont miss me too much, now hokay? Hopefully tmr's dinner goes well!


Because you're great. Now I need one good one with Najib. That pic btw, Mudd, can still be improved, lol.

Smelling Betrayal and tasting Deceit

I had every intention to stay up all night tonight. For one, I've got stuff to do and second, it just felt like rushing wasn't the way to go and since sleep has been sacrificed on practically a daily basis, what's one full run without?

Must suck to be you. I cannot imagine being placed in such a position.

I am shocked, still. HAHAH. It's almost unbelievable that you can write sense! Dare I say with depths even; a glimpse of what maturity there is in there.

So I'm biased. Well that's simply human nature right?

I like phone calls. Did you know that? It's always in these calls from friends that you learn something new. Almost as if a short journey to some form of... enlightenment. And by that, I do not only mean the hot goss.

Flirting with the prospect of -

Hi all. School life has been increasingly fun, you cannot imagine. By fun, I mean drama. By drama, I mean typical American high school kinda drama. Sorta. I think it's true then. Their high school life, is sort of like our college life?

In any case, yesterday was highly emotional. I mean honestly, what's up with that?! Good grief. I never could have fathomed to be as stunned as I was. The situation was one, and my reaction to it was another thing. It was.. like a gentle reminder of what happened not too long ago. Okay, so maybe "gentle" isn't exactly the appropriate adjective here. More like "harsh".

But I suppose it is precisely these things that make it memorable, that make your school life memorable and man, the stories I'll have under my belt by the end of this 2 year stint. I ought to write a book and make millions simply by putting all I've heard/seen/gone through in this short period of time in pages and pages and pages of words!

I love my girlfriends. I really do. You guys have grown on me in such a way that's so different, special and oh so unique. Like hello, seriously. There are times where we can be so different, I really do begin to question how we're even friends! So here's my love to Claudia, Fiona, Limwoan and Tabitha. Say it damn it. Say I'm sweet.

You know what they say about JC friends. How it's close to impossible to get great friends seeing how there's simply too many things to juggle in too short a time to even foster good relationships with people. Wrong. So wrong.

If anything, it's got to do with the maturity level I think. And the fact that you've got the opportunity to break away from whatever fatal vicious cycle it was you were stuck in for thhose 4 years in secondary school. It's like, you're suddenly given the opporutnity to BREATHE in "new" air and free whatever it was that was holding you back, for some odd reason.

Alex has been a real babe too. (: I love ya girl! Council will NEVER be the same without you. Recall all tha running around hunting for the right shade of colour for those darn ribbons and stuff? Heh. And! The JC1 Student Forum went pretty well! Who would've thought eh? Focus Group was brilliant too. Our lovely principal happened to be especially awesome that day. Meant to be.

And this lot.. Xian Liang, Jaymond, Elisha, Yvonne, as well as Alex make staying back good fun. The Council Room's too funky for your shoes. No, but really. That room's really great. These days, there's been a lot of MLTR and BSB playing in the room! LOL.

1A1 and our karaoke break times. Hotel California and 25 Minutes. Woohoo. Love love!

Here's a couple of random school pictures.

And with that, I bid ya goodnight. And Mrs Tan, if you're reading this, I really do am beginning to like Econs - a lot. (: I guess you could call this pre teachers' day sucking up? LOL, no lah. Really.

Night all!

PS: Check out my Facebook profile! Link's on the right. It's really rather cool. Get one lah you silly coconuts.